it's now 2 in the morning n im still awake
wat im i doin?
suddenly felt i lost my dreams, my goals......
im not me now
im juz a robot
working hard following da programme in me......
controlled by others....
lifeless.....
uni is not fun
n studying in utar burdens.....
they say utar stands for " universiti tak ada rehat"
well, i agree wif the statement above.........
i reali felt i hv no time for myself.......
maybe im not good at dealing wif stress
stress does me no good
it never motivate me.....
it only holds me back....
n being da first child,
i understand tat i hv more responsibilities
n im not suppose to let my family down
mum always tell me: ' u're big sis, ur bro n sis they are looking at u as a role model, wat u do will affect them"
this phrase is like a nightmare to me, haunting me everyday....
im tired, reali tired......
i need a life.......
i dun hv a life now......

tis blog is some place tat i can shout out my distress
im feeling so lonely, so miserable
i juz need someone to be around,
someone i can share my thought wif,
someone i can depend on..
is tat too much to ask?

well, life is hard....
i reali hope for a change.....
some good changes would be nice......